Learning Painful Lessons

So, I have been thinking a lot lately about learning through the difficulties of life. Because God didn't put them there to torture us, but to teach us. Today, I woke up in horrible pain. The pain I woke up with yesterday, that I think went away finally after some pain pills and moving, was back and unbelievable. Then, it kind of moved. Really. It moved from the front of my lower left belly to the back of the left side, by my pelvis. And everything hurt. Moving, not moving, breathing. Everything made it worse. I took some pain meds, put Unker's on it and a Thermacare wrap. It feels ok now, but for a couple of hours, it was horrible.

Instead of going into catastrophe mode, I thought about how to get through the next few minutes best and why God let me have this. Had to really focus on not losing my temper with the kids. But I did it. That for sure takes practice. Thought a lot about Ruby and her hip and how bad it must have felt to have the hip replacement surgery, knowing that it was risky. Seriously, I would have had major surgery to make that pain go away this morning. And I thought about how tiring it can be to hear people complain about their pain and yet, when you are in pain, it helps to talk about it and have someone give a rip. Not trying to be deep, just sharing my morning.

I had just told the boys last night, that after thinking long and hard, we would switch our morning and afternoon routines so we could do outside work before it got too hot. But, there was no way I could even imagine walking out back, so that didn't happen.

Lily just about stood up from sitting all by herself today. She is moving along. I tried to give her a bottle because I have been taking Advil to get through this pain. She would not have it. Could I have just one kid who was not strong willed? Guess not.

School got completed today but my bed is still not made.